October 10, 2007 at renaisance gallery at mega mall...
ah okay sorry... theres one picture taken at the house... hahah!! me and karen waiting for our sundo... huhah!
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Monday, October 8, 2007
rainy days and ice cream days... waiting shed hopping...
Sunday, October 7, 2007
Friday, October 5, 2007
my life changing college affairs (pagsisisi) and the frightening unknown future
this past few days i have been contemplating about the fact that there is no choice left for me but to graduate later than my batch... as a batch 04', i am supposed to graduate next semester (year 2007)... but due to indecisiveness... or lack of good decision making skills, i was not able to meet the required graduating year for a person my age... and whats worse is that i am not from a not so popular, reputable school... no offense to my school now (which i will just not mention) but lets face it as compared to where my closest friends are graduating my school is somewhat........... (so okay ill just not complete this sentence coz this is really making me go gagagagagagagag)(reality: wala na akong maisip na word kung pano ko maeexplain ng maayos ang gusto kng sabihin, ahahahah!! JK but if you know me too well (which will entail you to be a close friend of mine which is only a few people) you know what im talking about right (but if your a complete stranger who just happen to pass by my oh so corny blog that noone ever seems to visit, just keep on reading... thru that youll get it, in some way) heheh (phew thats too long for a segway eh? haahaah!))
the story: after high school my not so great life began to crack... a sixteen year old girl filled with dreams of becoming some hotshot yuppie in the city ended up in some okay fine fine college but due to high expectations i didnt much appreciate what i was into... all i ever did is find loopholes on how incompetitive and how lame the community im into is, complain about how sickly or asthmatic im getting due to unfriendly travelling experiences (a half an hour jeepney ride), when in reality some students travelling experiences are even worse (like an hour an a half jeepney ride)... i even had this drama of looking for a boarding house, which ended up in nothing but to still commute... i was a psychology student... well at first (in highschool) my plan was to really be in the advertising field but since i was not so listening to my mom that advertising is somewhat the same as marketing, i just picked up psychology just so i have a course... 2 years of whining and complaining... 2 years of being often late to class... 2 years... my transition to losing all my religiosity just because i was having a hard time in theology... my having a hard time coping with my closest friends (since theyre from a different school)... 2 years of not realizing that i was in a better place than i am now.....
"i was better off a psych student then... than an IT student now"
after two years of being fed up with complaints and whines... i finally decided to give in and be tempted... with my brother and fathers offer to transferring to a different college... at first the plan was be a nursing student (as to what the trend here in the philippines is) but since my brother made me realize that my personality is not that much of a nursing material, i decided to just take up BSIT... so here i am now... for my first semester... well i was kinda psyched with the facilities and the architectural beauty of the school... but after months of taking up programming courses i was really crawling up my ass with codes thats hard for me to understand... and as the semesters go on and on, i still dont have friends... and i find most students from this school as something really strange... they seem really hard on themselves and they seem to have thier own different world, but since im the new one in the school, and im the one with no friends, maybe, im the one whom they think is wierd. so time passes and passes... and now its been a year and a half since i have moved to a new school... hmm lets do the math: 2 years in old school, and a year an a half in new school so 2+1 an a half= 3 an a half... which is just a semester away from 4 years which is equivalent to graduation for a normal college student... i can now see my batchmates being worried with their thesis... cursing whoever invented the concept of thesis... i see them spending and calculating thier hours in thier practicums... and me well none of this have i experienced or felt yet... which makes me worry and sad... my status is still a third year student... my classmates well thier mostly younger than i am...
now where are all these becoming some "hotshot" yuppie in the city dreams of mine??? as of the moment its stored in the trash... but still i am hoping that after sometime i can still pick that dreams up in the trash and make it all come true... no matter how much im contemplating and being sad and stressed right now... im still hoping!! BIGTIME!!! to make things work for me the right way... i know it all started with making the wrong decisions, but what can i do evrything has been made... im already inside the scene of what once i thought was the right thing to do (na mali nmn pla)... but then i realize that all these mumbling is just a cause of what most men fear... the unknown future... and for me to make my life go back to the right road... and since i have already learned that indeciciveness can cause life cracks... i must take things step by step... read things carefully... consider facts... consider feelings... consider thinking cautiously... now that i am left with no choice but to live by this crack... i will try to cope and try to see things on a brighter side... i have always considered myself as a positive person... but sometimes depressing realities can really break a person up... but still i still have to stand up and do whats left with what this world has to offer me... (sana lang d ako mgend up na mging kakornihan ng mundo brrrr)
aja! aja!
go! go!
fighting!!!
heheh...
the story: after high school my not so great life began to crack... a sixteen year old girl filled with dreams of becoming some hotshot yuppie in the city ended up in some okay fine fine college but due to high expectations i didnt much appreciate what i was into... all i ever did is find loopholes on how incompetitive and how lame the community im into is, complain about how sickly or asthmatic im getting due to unfriendly travelling experiences (a half an hour jeepney ride), when in reality some students travelling experiences are even worse (like an hour an a half jeepney ride)... i even had this drama of looking for a boarding house, which ended up in nothing but to still commute... i was a psychology student... well at first (in highschool) my plan was to really be in the advertising field but since i was not so listening to my mom that advertising is somewhat the same as marketing, i just picked up psychology just so i have a course... 2 years of whining and complaining... 2 years of being often late to class... 2 years... my transition to losing all my religiosity just because i was having a hard time in theology... my having a hard time coping with my closest friends (since theyre from a different school)... 2 years of not realizing that i was in a better place than i am now.....
"i was better off a psych student then... than an IT student now"
after two years of being fed up with complaints and whines... i finally decided to give in and be tempted... with my brother and fathers offer to transferring to a different college... at first the plan was be a nursing student (as to what the trend here in the philippines is) but since my brother made me realize that my personality is not that much of a nursing material, i decided to just take up BSIT... so here i am now... for my first semester... well i was kinda psyched with the facilities and the architectural beauty of the school... but after months of taking up programming courses i was really crawling up my ass with codes thats hard for me to understand... and as the semesters go on and on, i still dont have friends... and i find most students from this school as something really strange... they seem really hard on themselves and they seem to have thier own different world, but since im the new one in the school, and im the one with no friends, maybe, im the one whom they think is wierd. so time passes and passes... and now its been a year and a half since i have moved to a new school... hmm lets do the math: 2 years in old school, and a year an a half in new school so 2+1 an a half= 3 an a half... which is just a semester away from 4 years which is equivalent to graduation for a normal college student... i can now see my batchmates being worried with their thesis... cursing whoever invented the concept of thesis... i see them spending and calculating thier hours in thier practicums... and me well none of this have i experienced or felt yet... which makes me worry and sad... my status is still a third year student... my classmates well thier mostly younger than i am...
now where are all these becoming some "hotshot" yuppie in the city dreams of mine??? as of the moment its stored in the trash... but still i am hoping that after sometime i can still pick that dreams up in the trash and make it all come true... no matter how much im contemplating and being sad and stressed right now... im still hoping!! BIGTIME!!! to make things work for me the right way... i know it all started with making the wrong decisions, but what can i do evrything has been made... im already inside the scene of what once i thought was the right thing to do (na mali nmn pla)... but then i realize that all these mumbling is just a cause of what most men fear... the unknown future... and for me to make my life go back to the right road... and since i have already learned that indeciciveness can cause life cracks... i must take things step by step... read things carefully... consider facts... consider feelings... consider thinking cautiously... now that i am left with no choice but to live by this crack... i will try to cope and try to see things on a brighter side... i have always considered myself as a positive person... but sometimes depressing realities can really break a person up... but still i still have to stand up and do whats left with what this world has to offer me... (sana lang d ako mgend up na mging kakornihan ng mundo brrrr)
aja! aja!
go! go!
fighting!!!
heheh...
Thursday, October 4, 2007
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Tuesday, October 2, 2007
confusion... boredom... and nothingness...
gaaak!!! this day is simply one of those boring days that makes me feel sooo effin confused...
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