tired wired and sad

its the time of the season again, the moment where i thought that after all these years i would be immune with this certain feeling, a feeling i hate the most, the feeling of letting go, the part where you just cant wait to hear his phone call again, the feeling where you blame the world for its unjustly arragement of its continents, the unjustly world, that we have to face the fact that people just have to go and leave you to make life worth living.

too much drama eh!?!?!? so okay enough, heheh... it has been just really a tiring 2 days... althought the first day was really fun, i went on a field trip to pampanga, and my classmates ands friends in the bus was just so much fun to be with, theyre crazy antics really makes the trip extatictly fun, and i really enjoyed the fact that i had total sweets and fastfood overload yesterday!!! first off, breakfast at jollibee, then a pack of red skittles, then for lunch, we ate at mcdonalds, then another pack of tropical flavored skittles, then we ate at kfc for dinner, then a pack of kissables and a 2 pieces of vanilla and cola flavored lollies. man that eating habit is just so 100% unhealthy, hahahah!!! and even add my breakfast, mcdonalds at slex!!! waaasaaak!!! hahah, so aun, okay after that very stomach grumbling experience i finally got home, but just after an hour of sleep, i had to wake up again and go to the airport, for my father was leaving for work again, and so here comes the drama agian, and i really hate that feeling!!!, coz after 20 years i was expecting that im already used to this whole goodbye tatay see you again in another 9 months or so crap. after saying my not so heart warming goodbye to tatay, i just felt a sudden rush of tears drowning my heart...

iconic

boredom...

does this look like moi???

anger

bwiseeet bwiseeet bwiseet! i once thought that your own room is always a place where you can seek comfort and refuge!!! a place where you can do anything you want, anything, anything!!!, anything like bieng comfortably crazy with yourself!!! like you can dance and sing if you just feel like dancing and singing, even if you look and hear like a stupid chicken coz in reality that is the place where no one really cares, a place of your own where you can just relax and be your inner self, your own territory.

a mans life is most of the time spent outside our room, and were social creatures thats why most of the time we spend our lives thinking of how we can look normal, but once inside the room we really just do whatever it is we want to do, with no apprehensions for no one watches us and no one really sees whatever it is that we do, but sometimes people just never stops!!! they always keeps minding others peoples business!!! they just enjoy scanning whatever it is that people do that doesnt really affect them anymore!!!

Invasion of privacy, minding your own business, knowing your own boundaries!!! Will you people mind your own business, that’s why the world is being filled with hatred and anger because people keeps on minding what others do that doesn’t really concern them and not a single damage is done to them!!! Well guess what fuckers, I’m happy living my like this, yes it may seem like my life is filled with crazy unconventional ways, but I’m happy living like this!!! I’m content with being like this!!! So assholes will you please just please know your boundaries and stop thinking of negativities coz really your just wasting your brain and mouths effort on thinking and commenting about the things that I do when in reality I aint affected… so sorry dearest but I don’t really give a single fuck on whatever those things you say to me!!! Say im crazy, weird, irresponsible, insane!!! And again im sorry coz, no matter how many times you tell rude comments about me, in any different ways, I wont be affected and not a single tear will be shed! And you cant change me!!! So be agitatedly irritated coz I don’t give a fuck!!!

lesson learned: ang mga chismosot chismosa and haters ay walang nararating sa buhay!!! bahala kyong magsalita ng kung ano ano against your neighbors hangang sa mpagod kayo kakaintindi sa buhay ng iba, na in reality ung buhay nyo d nyo nmn maayos ayos!!! so better yet fix yourself first before minding others!!!

ps... those people who make rude comments about others just really are dissatisfied with thier lame lives that they end up talking about others when in reality theyre just envy of how others live thier lives happily!!!

something to calm you down, uhm i had enough guts to post such rude words in this blog because i know that the person that i was mad at dont know how to deal with all these blogging shit, so if you happen to waste your time reading this non sense lashing out statement of mine dont think of it as you, heheh, so sorry, anger just really got on my brains, just wanted to take things lightly by writing, in other words, wag assumera assumero heheh...

:)

when evryone just feels like the world conspires to break thier day, mine ironically turns out to be the opposite of how i expect things to be...

kust me being silly... silly me... silly ella... hahah!!!