bla bla bla

2009-04-28T11:32:00.000-07:00

I've been searching for you
I heard a cry within my soul
I've never had a yearning quite like this before
Now that you are walking right through my door

All of my life
Where have you been
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again

A sacred gift of heaven
For better worse wherever
And I would never let somebody break you down.
Until you cried... never

At every time, I've always known
That you where there, upon your throne
A lonely queen, without her king
I longed for you, my love ______________

Gossip Girl Quote

2009-01-17T08:29:00.000-08:00

You know, it's kind of funny, how you can find meaning from things you wouldn't think to look at. Like on a TV show- The truth always comes out, it's one of the fundamental rules of time. And when it comes out it can set you free, or end everything you've fought so hard for. Another way the truth comes out - when you don't even mean it to, or when, without saying a word, it's still heard loud and clear. But the worst thing the truth can do? Is when you finally tell it, it doesn't set you free, but locks you away forever.

icon <3

2008-12-11T06:41:00.000-08:00

yehey

2008-12-03T07:23:00.000-08:00

IM BACK!

damn you!

2008-07-09T00:59:00.000-07:00

damn you! and you know who you are!

once i said taking back... no regets... but why oh why am i know filled with regrets... a thousand pound full of regrets... maybe its just for today...

then again i always look at the brighter side of things... maybe by tomorow itl just be another day... another day.. of not you in it...

season for change... season for rain... wooh

2008-06-24T03:03:00.000-07:00

bumagyo, at bumaha nung saturday!!! and i thought tha when its all over, eh all over na talaga... at nung sunday wala kmeng kuryente and its understandable.. pero baket nung monday nawala, akala ko isasama na ni kumparang frank paalis yung kuryente nmn eh! wooooh

in the mood for nothing

2008-06-09T18:12:00.001-07:00

toink.... ahahahahahhaha

NEWBIE MAGALING KA LANG SA SIMULA!

2008-06-09T01:25:00.000-07:00

bagong bahay, bagong lugar, bagong buhay???...

bagong course... bagong school shoes... panibagong semester...

waw andaming bago... and so i wonder... pano ko kaya sisismulan tong mga kabaguhan na to???

will i be able to keep them on the right track and manage to balance??? o baka naman magcrackdown na naman ako???

i have always seen new things, beginnings, as a challenge... but sometimes i just cant help but realize na MAGALING LANG AKO SA SIMULA! ouch as it may sound like... pero tinako naman yung mga encounters ko oh... una di ko natapos yung psych ko, tapos yung IT hinde din, tas buti sana kung saglit saglit eh hinde eh... tig 2 years... it takes me two years para marealize naaaaa di ko kayaaa! at eto na naman ako... HRM na ko... this is not as technical as IT... sooo hopefully matapoas ko to... tapos tapos tapos sa gaming... ang dami dami kong nilalaro pero ni isa walang umabot sa level 100! yung tipong mamaw na ko sa galing... ahaha!

oh well oh well since narealize ko naman yung ga bagay na to... lesson learned??? ano ba?? hmm wag galingan sa simula??? ahahah! naaaah... learn how to balance... :)

the heart of the matter sex and the city soundtrack

2008-06-04T21:44:00.000-07:00

I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And all the struggles we went through
How I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?

I've been learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning them again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
And the trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work they put between us,
You know it doesn't keep us warm

I've been trying to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know, the less I understand
And all the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my heart is so shattered
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

All the people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down, you know they hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on
You keep carrin' that anger, it'll eat you up inside

I wanna be happily everafter
And my heart is so shattered
But I know it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I'm thinkin' about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if you don't love me anymore
Even if you don't love me anymore

mental retardation roit

2008-05-19T06:01:00.000-07:00

boring days... boring ways... so much to do so little time... nothing to do with so much time... cant help but wonder why oh why... my oh my... my brain is thinking... but my thoughts are dry... crazy... insane... or just plainly bored...

anchorino astro avance

2008-05-12T09:44:00.000-07:00

MY DEAR DOG ANCHOR :)

he loves milk

he loves alpo dog food

he loves to bite and chew stuffs

he hates dog food with water

he hates pedigree dog food

he hates it when he's locked up in he's cage

i know he's tired playing when he starts to just lie down on the throw pillow

i love it when he does that big puppy dog eyes look on me (O_O)

ICONS AGAIN AND AGAIN

2008-05-11T19:21:00.001-07:00

waking steps

2008-05-07T03:38:00.000-07:00

first step... open the eyes, and blink, then think... how this day would turn out, would it be just like those other days that felt like youve been running around a wheel that everything just happens over and ovar again?, or would it be the day that youll finally get what youve been dreamin about when you were sleeping?

second step... think, think, think, be bothered, another sunshine, another day, then you figure, aaaaaahh badtrip! another day of what what what (skul, office, work, errands, which may all equate to distress???) but then again it is another day, another chance, another glance???, another unknown that may lead to a lot of different emotions.

third step... be awake, the eyes are partly open, brain partly functioning, and body?, oh well, it depends, sometimes the body just is sooo damn tired to get all the blood up pumping for the energy of standing up, or then again it may not be tired, but it really is enjoying the pleasure of the comfort that the bed brings. so we think again... will i just stay in bed and bum around... or whoops, oh shit! todays the deadline, i got work, i got class, but im really tired, so here comes the new day, aaaw its now hurting the eyes...

fourth step... so as time ticks... decision arrives... and now theres nothing left to pick but get up and start walking... two things: be sluggish or be excited... sluggish: because it feels like this is just another day of everything that happened yesterday.. a routine... boooring... excited: woooh this is the day! the day another day!!! another light, i will be, will be... wooh alot of things to do! yehey!!!

fifth step... last step we start the day...

***and so i wonder how my new day would be***

birthday blues

2008-04-07T17:34:00.000-07:00

yesterday was my birthday!!! yeeepay!!! and im now 21 years old... naks binata na ako! ahahahahah... cant wait for my golden retriever! wuupppeeee

its a complicated emotion

2008-03-27T05:23:00.000-07:00

of course i like you
its because i like i dont
want to be with you. its a
complicated emotion
- fiNDiNG nEMo

dilemma

2008-03-24T06:06:00.000-07:00

its the season of graduation again, and im turning green with envy or worse ung prang may scurvy!!! lols...

i entered college with full hopes of graduating on time... and now im searching for things to blame, but it all roots to a lot of things that belong to one person... its just plain indecisiveness... my weakness of making the wrong turns... my being too, happy go jolly... my being such a procrastinator... my being too dependent... my being fickle minded... bla bla bla... and the list goes on...

at aun na un! pagod nko madistress sa kakaisip hahahah!!! pero okay lng kc looking at the brighter side of things eh i am very fortunate to still be able study, and still have enough time to enjoy the pleasures of being a student, and sarap kaya mging hestudyante, may baon, mdaming oras to do silly things, hahahah! un nga lng kc i really really wanna feel the pleasure of earning your own moolah (kaching kaching) para maalis na ung pressure of plaging ngpapaalam sa parentals... i really hate that!!! "mama pleeeease cge naaa..."

oh well oh well... waevurrrr...

ICON WHORE ATTACKS!!!

2008-03-23T06:57:00.000-07:00

project mutya pictures

2008-03-05T03:23:00.000-08:00

cure for my silence

2008-03-03T04:06:00.000-08:00

warning: the next lines that you will be reading will be highly fictional... so dont make any gossip out of it okay, this post of mine is just a story created by my sometimes highly dreamy brain, heheheh...

i am looking for a medicine, a cure for all of these sanity, i once thought that this place im in is the place where evrything is normal, i thought that i was at home, but after years of pondering and experiencing i have come to the realization that this is insane, i was once contented with just being as simple as the abcs and 123s, but now i am looking for the complexity of math, physics, science, and the unknown. i am now fed up with living like the wheel, where evrything that happens runs lyk a cycle, and evrything i do is moved by a person that thinks hes knowlegable than you, i am thru that stage and i want to stop, but i cant stop, and i am sick, tired, stressed, sick, sick of all these tension, and i am looking for the cure, looking for that medicine that can make me smile differently, make me think differently, make this wheel turn into a different direction. a direction that can break the cycle of insanity...

tired wired and sad

2008-02-22T18:42:00.000-08:00

its the time of the season again, the moment where i thought that after all these years i would be immune with this certain feeling, a feeling i hate the most, the feeling of letting go, the part where you just cant wait to hear his phone call again, the feeling where you blame the world for its unjustly arragement of its continents, the unjustly world, that we have to face the fact that people just have to go and leave you to make life worth living.

too much drama eh!?!?!? so okay enough, heheh... it has been just really a tiring 2 days... althought the first day was really fun, i went on a field trip to pampanga, and my classmates ands friends in the bus was just so much fun to be with, theyre crazy antics really makes the trip extatictly fun, and i really enjoyed the fact that i had total sweets and fastfood overload yesterday!!! first off, breakfast at jollibee, then a pack of red skittles, then for lunch, we ate at mcdonalds, then another pack of tropical flavored skittles, then we ate at kfc for dinner, then a pack of kissables and a 2 pieces of vanilla and cola flavored lollies. man that eating habit is just so 100% unhealthy, hahahah!!! and even add my breakfast, mcdonalds at slex!!! waaasaaak!!! hahah, so aun, okay after that very stomach grumbling experience i finally got home, but just after an hour of sleep, i had to wake up again and go to the airport, for my father was leaving for work again, and so here comes the drama agian, and i really hate that feeling!!!, coz after 20 years i was expecting that im already used to this whole goodbye tatay see you again in another 9 months or so crap. after saying my not so heart warming goodbye to tatay, i just felt a sudden rush of tears drowning my heart...

iconic

2008-02-04T22:27:00.000-08:00

boredom...

2008-02-04T22:09:00.001-08:00

does this look like moi???

anger

2008-02-03T05:09:00.000-08:00

bwiseeet bwiseeet bwiseet! i once thought that your own room is always a place where you can seek comfort and refuge!!! a place where you can do anything you want, anything, anything!!!, anything like bieng comfortably crazy with yourself!!! like you can dance and sing if you just feel like dancing and singing, even if you look and hear like a stupid chicken coz in reality that is the place where no one really cares, a place of your own where you can just relax and be your inner self, your own territory.

a mans life is most of the time spent outside our room, and were social creatures thats why most of the time we spend our lives thinking of how we can look normal, but once inside the room we really just do whatever it is we want to do, with no apprehensions for no one watches us and no one really sees whatever it is that we do, but sometimes people just never stops!!! they always keeps minding others peoples business!!! they just enjoy scanning whatever it is that people do that doesnt really affect them anymore!!!

Invasion of privacy, minding your own business, knowing your own boundaries!!! Will you people mind your own business, that’s why the world is being filled with hatred and anger because people keeps on minding what others do that doesn’t really concern them and not a single damage is done to them!!! Well guess what fuckers, I’m happy living my like this, yes it may seem like my life is filled with crazy unconventional ways, but I’m happy living like this!!! I’m content with being like this!!! So assholes will you please just please know your boundaries and stop thinking of negativities coz really your just wasting your brain and mouths effort on thinking and commenting about the things that I do when in reality I aint affected… so sorry dearest but I don’t really give a single fuck on whatever those things you say to me!!! Say im crazy, weird, irresponsible, insane!!! And again im sorry coz, no matter how many times you tell rude comments about me, in any different ways, I wont be affected and not a single tear will be shed! And you cant change me!!! So be agitatedly irritated coz I don’t give a fuck!!!

lesson learned: ang mga chismosot chismosa and haters ay walang nararating sa buhay!!! bahala kyong magsalita ng kung ano ano against your neighbors hangang sa mpagod kayo kakaintindi sa buhay ng iba, na in reality ung buhay nyo d nyo nmn maayos ayos!!! so better yet fix yourself first before minding others!!!

ps... those people who make rude comments about others just really are dissatisfied with thier lame lives that they end up talking about others when in reality theyre just envy of how others live thier lives happily!!!

something to calm you down, uhm i had enough guts to post such rude words in this blog because i know that the person that i was mad at dont know how to deal with all these blogging shit, so if you happen to waste your time reading this non sense lashing out statement of mine dont think of it as you, heheh, so sorry, anger just really got on my brains, just wanted to take things lightly by writing, in other words, wag assumera assumero heheh...

:)

2008-02-01T02:51:00.000-08:00

when evryone just feels like the world conspires to break thier day, mine ironically turns out to be the opposite of how i expect things to be...

kust me being silly... silly me... silly ella... hahah!!!

complaints

2008-01-31T03:41:00.000-08:00

i just feel so uninspired! bored! my thoughts is filled with discontent! baaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

random thoughts for 2008

2008-01-08T04:46:00.000-08:00

2008 has now entered the worlds doorstep and he will be spending 12months, and an estimate of 52 weeks, 365 days, 8765 hours, 525948 minutes and 31556926 seconds in our life. and in a second a lot of things can happen, couples break up due to loves mysterious appeal yet on the other hand a different couple finds romance which is again due to loves mysterious appeal, in a minute tons of children cries with sad tears yet in that same minute tons of children also cries in fits of giggles, in just hours a person gets sick but on the contrary another person is cured, and in just a day a super hot hot hot a-list hollywood celebrity gets married and in just a day that same a list celebrity files a divorce, in just weeks people die of different cases it can be because of a serious desease or maybe because of natures mystery that caused an accident and also in just weeks a person is born for different reasons because its lifes cycle or it can also be because of womans bodily mysteries that caused an accident. a lot of things happen whether it has a reason or not, and we cant stop it, we cant stop time as we cant stop ourselves from breathing, not unless we choose to go suicidal. so here comes another year, another year of sunshines and sunsets, ups and downs, highs and lows, another year of incoming oppurtunities to grab and to let go.

typically when new year comes in most people make their resolutions, well some really make thier resolutions happen, but as for me its really hard to commit to such things, so ever since i started realizing this thought i stoppred thinking of new year resolutions, positively speaking why make resolutions only when new year comes, when you can basically make a resolution daily, i do think that a resolution is made because we want to make our life better, we want to learn and begin to realize our mistakes, and with this thought, do we only learn and realize when new year comes? of course not! daily, as new experiences challenge us, we learn and we realize things, we start to conclude things and do things to stop the negativities in our lives, which is exactly the reason why we make resolutions.so why make resolutions only when new year comes, when we can take away all those negativities in just a month, why wait for the next year to come. (baaah this phrase seem so negative and anti (ah basta ganun ung isip ko dn eh!))

and so here i go cotemplating about my unkown future for 2008, i think id better stop thinking about it much and live life day by day with careful thinking and well planned things to do.

GOOD LUCK MAY EVERYOE HAVE A PROSPEROUS AND HAPPY 2008!

my supercalifragilisticexpialidocious breakaway from my typical student existence

2007-11-12T04:28:00.000-08:00

this sem break was surely a blast...

i was able to experience different surges of emotions, and my feet was able to land on different soils...

first off, i was able to experience a week of work, yeah yeah last year 2006, i was able to work as well in a travel agency for more than a week, but this time its different, coz i was able to feel the actual excitement of getting paid!! ( sweldo itu tsong!!), and this work is much thrilling maybe because of the fact that i will be working in an unfamiliar place, yes yes, i am somewhat a provin-ci-ya-na, since i live in los baños, and that im still a student, in los baños, again!, working in manila would be a really fun fun thing to experience. also since i have a knack for riding the LRT line2, and since my brother lives in santolan pasig, and the working place is in intramuros manila, this means that i will be able to ride the LRT line2 from SANTOLAN STATION to RECTO STATION (for those who dont know the train ride route, it simply means riding the train from the other end to the other end, sa tagalog dulo sa dulo) which means more hours of ride! YIPPEEE!!!

so all in all this working experience idea means, having more time riding my favorite train ride namely LRT line2, being able to sight see and actually experience the hustle and bustle of manila's working life, and lastly (which is the best part of it all) is getting paid (kaching kaching)!!!

after a week of tiring and eye drooling (caused by hours of encoding data in the computer) yet amusing learning experience i was able to earn almost 2thousand bucks, so yeehahh!!! i finally goit paid! and what do people do after getting paid??? well for actual hard working people they spend it on thier needs like food for lunch dinner breakfast, bills etc, but in my case since im a parasitic student and that i have no bills to pay, i spent it on (drumroll please)...my first guilt free SHOPPING experience!!! (but do take note that i realized that a hard earned money is not as easy to spend like counting 123.)

exactly after being employed for a week, halloween is next on the list... during the halloween night my mother planned a holloween party for the kids around the street where my brother lives, the kids were required to wear a costume!!! it was really fun, its was like a real life set for the dawn of the dead (kids version), games were held and a lot of laughters were made... but the fun, for me, really began when they started throwing out candies!!!

after that halloween party, and a week of stay in manila got me really tired, thats why my mother invited me to come along with her in bataan for the weekend, so i went along with her, bataan is a really attracting place, it is still so in touch with nature, the marina was great! i can even see corigidor from there (the real plan tho, was to go to corigidor, but the trip was cancelled because there was no available boat/"banka" trip).

after the bataan trip, i was expecting to going back to my typical bumming life as student on break, but something came up that made me really really happy!!! a phone call from my tatay (father) saying that his on his way back to the philippines (my tatay's a seaman), and that his expected arrival is november 6, exactly a day before his birthday (november 7), a lot of things really got me all psyched, spefically the pasalubongs, tons of new stuffs, shopping at duty free, and a laptop!!!, but the best part that really got me excited was being able to hug him and talking to him in person after months of just hearing his voice on the phone.

all those fun-filled activities really got me busy as a bee during the semestral break, so this i say "d na bitin ung sem break ngaung 07', sulit na sulit"

la vie en rose

2007-11-05T05:44:00.000-08:00

Hold me close and hold me fastThe magic spell you castThis is la vie en roseWhen you kiss me, Heaven sighsAnd though I close my eyesI see la vie en roseWhen you press me to your heartI'm in a world apartA world where roses bloomAnd when you speak Angels sing from aboveEvery day words Seem to turn into love songsGive your heart and soul to meAnd life will always be La vie en rose
Quand il me prend dans ses brasIl me parle tout basJe vois la vie en roseIl me dit des mots d'amourDes mots de tous les joursEt ça m'fait quelque choseIl est entré dans mon coeurUne part de bonheurDont je connais la causeC'est toi pour moi, moi pour toi, dans la vieTu me l'as dit, l'as juré, pour la vie
Give your heart and soul to meAnd life will always beLa vie en rose

my cousin's painting

2007-10-18T08:41:00.001-07:00

October 10, 2007 at renaisance gallery at mega mall...

ah okay sorry... theres one picture taken at the house... hahah!! me and karen waiting for our sundo... huhah!

rainy days and ice cream days... waiting shed hopping...

2007-10-08T07:09:00.000-07:00

another day filled wth raindrops and icecreams... a cause of boredom... but equated to waiting shed hopping that resulted to camera whoring that ended up having fun fun fun!

picture pictures:

more pictures to come ngloloko lng kc pc ko heheh... ayan bitin tuloy... chowli

for the LOve of Rambutan

2007-10-07T12:48:00.000-07:00

silly pictures... weheheh... at putho lovin rambutan! weeee

my life changing college affairs (pagsisisi) and the frightening unknown future

2007-10-05T09:08:00.000-07:00

this past few days i have been contemplating about the fact that there is no choice left for me but to graduate later than my batch... as a batch 04', i am supposed to graduate next semester (year 2007)... but due to indecisiveness... or lack of good decision making skills, i was not able to meet the required graduating year for a person my age... and whats worse is that i am not from a not so popular, reputable school... no offense to my school now (which i will just not mention) but lets face it as compared to where my closest friends are graduating my school is somewhat........... (so okay ill just not complete this sentence coz this is really making me go gagagagagagagag)(reality: wala na akong maisip na word kung pano ko maeexplain ng maayos ang gusto kng sabihin, ahahahah!! JK but if you know me too well (which will entail you to be a close friend of mine which is only a few people) you know what im talking about right (but if your a complete stranger who just happen to pass by my oh so corny blog that noone ever seems to visit, just keep on reading... thru that youll get it, in some way) heheh (phew thats too long for a segway eh? haahaah!))

the story: after high school my not so great life began to crack... a sixteen year old girl filled with dreams of becoming some hotshot yuppie in the city ended up in some okay fine fine college but due to high expectations i didnt much appreciate what i was into... all i ever did is find loopholes on how incompetitive and how lame the community im into is, complain about how sickly or asthmatic im getting due to unfriendly travelling experiences (a half an hour jeepney ride), when in reality some students travelling experiences are even worse (like an hour an a half jeepney ride)... i even had this drama of looking for a boarding house, which ended up in nothing but to still commute... i was a psychology student... well at first (in highschool) my plan was to really be in the advertising field but since i was not so listening to my mom that advertising is somewhat the same as marketing, i just picked up psychology just so i have a course... 2 years of whining and complaining... 2 years of being often late to class... 2 years... my transition to losing all my religiosity just because i was having a hard time in theology... my having a hard time coping with my closest friends (since theyre from a different school)... 2 years of not realizing that i was in a better place than i am now.....

"i was better off a psych student then... than an IT student now"

after two years of being fed up with complaints and whines... i finally decided to give in and be tempted... with my brother and fathers offer to transferring to a different college... at first the plan was be a nursing student (as to what the trend here in the philippines is) but since my brother made me realize that my personality is not that much of a nursing material, i decided to just take up BSIT... so here i am now... for my first semester... well i was kinda psyched with the facilities and the architectural beauty of the school... but after months of taking up programming courses i was really crawling up my ass with codes thats hard for me to understand... and as the semesters go on and on, i still dont have friends... and i find most students from this school as something really strange... they seem really hard on themselves and they seem to have thier own different world, but since im the new one in the school, and im the one with no friends, maybe, im the one whom they think is wierd. so time passes and passes... and now its been a year and a half since i have moved to a new school... hmm lets do the math: 2 years in old school, and a year an a half in new school so 2+1 an a half= 3 an a half... which is just a semester away from 4 years which is equivalent to graduation for a normal college student... i can now see my batchmates being worried with their thesis... cursing whoever invented the concept of thesis... i see them spending and calculating thier hours in thier practicums... and me well none of this have i experienced or felt yet... which makes me worry and sad... my status is still a third year student... my classmates well thier mostly younger than i am...

now where are all these becoming some "hotshot" yuppie in the city dreams of mine??? as of the moment its stored in the trash... but still i am hoping that after sometime i can still pick that dreams up in the trash and make it all come true... no matter how much im contemplating and being sad and stressed right now... im still hoping!! BIGTIME!!! to make things work for me the right way... i know it all started with making the wrong decisions, but what can i do evrything has been made... im already inside the scene of what once i thought was the right thing to do (na mali nmn pla)... but then i realize that all these mumbling is just a cause of what most men fear... the unknown future... and for me to make my life go back to the right road... and since i have already learned that indeciciveness can cause life cracks... i must take things step by step... read things carefully... consider facts... consider feelings... consider thinking cautiously... now that i am left with no choice but to live by this crack... i will try to cope and try to see things on a brighter side... i have always considered myself as a positive person... but sometimes depressing realities can really break a person up... but still i still have to stand up and do whats left with what this world has to offer me... (sana lang d ako mgend up na mging kakornihan ng mundo brrrr)

aja! aja!

go! go!

fighting!!!

heheh...

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2007-10-04T00:39:00.000-07:00

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confusion... boredom... and nothingness...

2007-10-02T08:19:00.000-07:00

gaaak!!! this day is simply one of those boring days that makes me feel sooo effin confused...

samurai showdaown winning streaks!

2007-09-27T01:21:00.000-07:00

this past few weeks i have benn obsesin with snes... and enjoying the bliss that samurai shodown brings ahahah!!! oh ayan pictures syempre ung mga panalo lang ako nkakahiya nmn ipakita ung mga bugbug sarado ako! ahahaha!

-im ukyo... the blue samurai!-im nakoruru the red lady heheh

corny!

2007-09-19T01:28:00.000-07:00

corny! hahah!

Y4IT Congress...

2007-09-18T17:00:00.000-07:00

Last september 12-14 (wednesday-friday) the the Youth 4 IT congress was held at SM North Edsa Quezon City. It is an annual meeting of IT or Computer or simply Technology Enthusiasts organized by the UPITTC (UP Information Technology Training Center). wherein different speakers from different IT or Computer company or even people from the senate were invited to talk about thier IT experience and how technology evolves and how it can affect our future as students (as most of the viewers were).

...................... enough... haha ayoko nung format nung first paragraph msyadong serious! OMG! hahah!!! oh eto ung all original na experience ko!

lets take this day by day...

first day (sept 12, 2007) Commuting Excitement

345am: krrrrrrrrring krrrrrrng... toooot tooot tooot... my not so alarming wake up call....

400: finally!!! i woke up.... prepped up

430: goofed around the house as if i have no plans for the day... hahah!

500: ate breakfast with kuya at 711

600am: left elbi and went to manila (finally!)

enough of that time bla bla... bsta heres the story... we arrived at north edsa at exactly eight 8 in the morning then our teacher gave us the total freedom to pick what cinema we would like to enter. (as you can see the there are 4 cinemas in this congress and each has different topics that are discussed.) the AM part of the program was not so fun coz' the gay emcee was having a hard time making the students laugh and enjoy the show for some reason the students in this cinema seem to be sooo effin' serious... in my case uhm lets just say i dont enjoy gay humor... coz i find it quite offensive. but hey i dont really care as long as its not me! ahahah!... the first speaker was a guy from sun microsysytems and of course he talked about his company and what it does... he also introduced to us thier new program that has something to do with the iphone and java.

then lunchtime came... i was all alone hahah! but its okay coz for some reason i enjoyed the company of solitude... i know it may sound so emostatic but no i didnt mean that in that sort of way! i enjoyed it because i was able to walk aroud the mall all by myself and i was able to buy a pair of checkered shoes! oooh lala! but since were only given an hour to have lunch i was not able to buy myself some food but its okay coz' when i return at the cinema we were again given afternoon snacks.

during the PM session of the congress a gamer was the speaker.. i really enjoyed her presentation ragarding the gaming industry here in the philippines...

waaaaaah wooooh waaah here it goes!! the best part! i get to travel the roads of manila and QC alone! ahahahah! nkakaaliw... i get to experience how its like to commute in manila... stressful yet enjoyable... during this first day i was lyk hopping while taking the stairs on my way up to the mrt... heheh...

second day (sept 13, 2007) Solitary Day

600am woke up, and prepped up... again feeling all XD XD XD hahah! coz this time i will experience commuting in manila during morning time.... wherein people are on the rush to get to school and work...

730 left the house with ate badeth and travelled to QC to attend the second day of the conference... phew i did a lot of "katangahans" along the way... heheh... lyk asking the guard sa mrt station cubao kung "san po ba ung papuntang cubao?" eh hello! ija youre already in cubao!! hahah... but the stupid guard without realizing my being stupid answered me with a "doon po maam" ahahahah!!! crazy!!!

815 finally i arrived at sm north edsa... phew... i was kinda late tho... heheh... so when i arrived at the cinema for the congress i saw my teacher and got my ticket... and entered cinema 9, all alone! as in literally all alone! not a single participant entered the cinema... soo i sorta stayed there for some time but when like 30 minutes passed and no one was still entering the cinema i decided to go and leave and go to cinema 12... wherein the place is the total opposite of cinema 9 because it was jam packed! hahah...

nkakapagod na ung timeline... gnto na lang pra mas staright to the point heheheh...

oh wel after that bla bla blas made by the speakers lunchtime came... so again i ate lunch or should i say a big plate of nachos all alone... during this trip solitude was my constant companion... although it sounds so dramatic the reality behind is that im really enjoying spending time all by myself... oh ayan ntapos na ang lunch since wala dn nmn akong mpuntahan i was left with no choice but to go back to cinema 12 but since it was so full i just decided to transfer to cinema 11 then poof... the speaker was a representative from the senate of the philippines specifically mr palengke... mr mar roxas... not really a fan of him tho... heheh i find him so showbizzy... heheh... i just find it quite nice to hear him talk about the IT Job industry here in the phillipines... then question and answer portion came.. ahahah! oh my this was heck of a shit! full of damn silly questions that the teachers or the participants from other schools argued... after the fun fun fun presentation of mr palengke... ms aimee marcos was next... oh my she looks so classy... hehehe.. oh well heheh.. then she discussed about cream... or creative media philippines.. its an organization that promotes the creative media here in the philippines. after her talk i got really exhausted and sleepy that i decided to just leave and go home...

so again i was hopping extatically on my way to the mrt station going to cubao when my brother texted me that he was just around in manila and that he wanted to meet up with me at megamall so i decide to lengthen my mrt trip a little so from cubao i went to down at the ortigas station... sadly it was raining... but luckilly i have an umbrella... heheheh oh ano ngaun un?!?!? (ganan tlaga, ella's crazy talk ang tawag jn, heheh) finally i arrived at megamall all soaked up with the rain... baaaah! but since kuya's on his way pa lang... i went to powerbooks to spare some time... damn that bookstore!!! pinaglaway lang ako sa libro na dko nmn mabili... kc wala na akong pera/budget! TAE nmn tlaga oo!! heheheh oh well okay lang kc babalikan ko un! bwahahahahahahahahahah!!! (another crazy talk... heheheh) then after killing an hour finally kuya and ate badeth arrived... then after roaming around the mall... we decided to go home... kuya went home to elbi... wala kc ksama c mama... kme ni ate badeth we went home to pasig... tpos pguwe nanood akong TV! bwahahah channel2 oo may TV na cla kuya!!! yeah yeah yeah!!! ung may antenna!!! waaaah... *(we dont have a socially connected TV at home (elbi)... its only purpose is for DVD playing)... after dozing myself with TV i decided to sleep and wake up early for the last day of the congress...

zzzzzzzz....

third day (sept 14, 2007) Takas day heheh

okay i woke up early this day fearing that i would get late and miss the chance of meeting up with faye and jasmine... finally d na nko solitary! i will get to experience the chance of attending this congress with friends... (but while i was riding the lrt and mrt, i was somewhat dramatic, coz since this is the last day of the seminar i will be riding the trace van on my way home to elbi, meaning last ko na nsakay sa mrt for this season) but the problem was that i was too early... i was already at the meeting area when my teacher texted me that they are still at alabang... oh my! heheh... pero okay lang kc wala nmn akong choice but to wait... then an hour minutes passed and finally they arrived... heheheh... picture picture... ahahaha!

so okay faye jasmine and i were really bugged by the boredom bug when we entered the cinema... specially me coz i have been listening to those almost "the same talks about the IT industry" so then we decided to go out and roam around... since it is located at sm north edsa which is basically in front of trinoma... we were easily temted with the thought of "pagtakas" eheheh... so okay after deciding run away from it all... plans changed that we decided to go to megamall... so next thing i knew we were at the mrt station on the way to the ortigas station...

when we arrived at the megamall station... phew! ahaha we were so dayum hungry that we decided to eat...after eating lunch... we went and had a heck of fun roaming around megamall, that time flew so fast that we decided to go back to north edsa without a single thing bought but a ton of calories ate... heheheh... although okay lang nmn coz' faye finally got her phone "open lined" so that she can finally switch to a globe sim, and enjoy the fun of unlitextin...

when we got back to north edsa where the congress was held the show or the congress was oficially finished... but since the students were given more time to roam around we decided to again enjoy the fun that sm malls bring.. eheheh... then my moomie called me and told me that i will not be joining the trace van and that i will be spending one more day in manila, because kuya wont be able to go back to manila and since brenda (ate badeth's (kuyas lovey dovey) sister) is asked to go to elbi, im gonna go back to kuya's place in pasig and spend the night and when morning comes, me and burenda will both go back to elbi. so okay yey!!! but no i was feeling kinda different after roaming around for the whole day... then something came up again, ehehe not that much of a big deal tho... its just that theres a show in sm north edsa... so me and my friends took a peek... a peek lang kc may BO ung nkatabi nla faye na guy!!! eeeck!!! ahahah!!! so after that going home time na for them and me im off to pasig again, so we bid our fun goodbyes...

on my way to the mrt station i was really really tired... phew that was like the hardest feeling of traveling ever... pero okay lang mejo naenjoy ko pa dn mski pagod nko... eheheh... so aun finally i arrived home to pasig... pero oh my "bagsak na tlaga ako!!!", as in pgdating ko toink nkahiga nko sa floor!!!... then brenda touched my neck "nangingiliti" eheheh coz she was waking me up to eat dinner... when she realized that im sick... she yelled "c ate esi (my nickname) nilalagnat, ang init") then for the whole night i was really sick, aaack!!! grabe, my temperature was 40!!!

next day... and next weeks... basta after na ng Y4IT!!!

then the sun rose and i was still sick, so ate badeth decided to take me to the hospital... when we arived at medical city i was stuck at the emergency building for the whole morning coz' i was hydrated in other words dinextrose ako... and a lot of medicines and tests were took... oh my msakit ung pgkuha skn ng dugo! grabe, i felt like i was going to faint... then after that series of tests the doctor told me that theres really nothing wrong with me i kust got hit by a virus (parang ung pc ko a month ago, heheheh) then after that release from the hospital, since i felt like i was again somewhat capable we decided to go home to elbi, thankfully nkauwi pa nmn akong los banos... but when i got home, i was again sick... i just thought that i was tired from all the travel, so i just took a rest, but the next day, my nose was bleeding, my moomie got scared that i might have dengue... so she got me checked up again at LBDH... so okay o was diagnosed as a typhoid victim, so i was confined!!!! i got stucked up at the hospital for three days doing nothing but munch tons of jelly ace and engrossed my eyes with TV... but finally after three days nkalabas dn... alive and kicking na ule ako!! yeehaaa

summary:

umatend ako ng congress for three days

ngstay ako kna kuya sa manila during these said 3 days congress

ngcommute ako mgisa by riding mrt and lrt which i find fun fun fun!

ngkasakit ako... huhuhu

but i survived!!! YEY!!!

whaaaat!!!

2007-09-03T10:56:00.000-07:00

$3,506what?!?!?! my darn effin' body is only worth that!!! lame lame lame!!!!

RATE MY LIFE

2007-09-03T10:33:00.000-07:00

58.8/100

so okay i took this test... and oh my what a result... that just show how much of a lame person i am right... but hey i dont really care... hahah even tho the result is like that... i can prove to you people that i can make it improve!! baaah! hahah

oh well here is a much detailed result (according to the site):

accomplishments: 5.52/25 stated that i should be doing better at this point in my life...

sins: 23.88/25stated that i am walking on the right path for i am not that sinful... and that i should stay on the path...

Virtues: 12.78/25stated that its not a bad score but should be doing a bit better...

physical/mental state: 16.67/25stated that i seem to have my shit stuff together and that i should keep it up...

ICONS ICONS ICONS... jez effin; lovin' it

2007-08-30T09:08:00.000-07:00

friendship...

2007-08-23T04:48:00.000-07:00

as i was talking with my dear pal karen... while fixin' up our nails... and me feeling oh soooo bad due to darn stomach pains... and as i ponder with the thought of can i just work as a friend???, then karen questioned me with the thought that okay??, ill pay you money as a friend???... then let's make a deal... ill pay you as my friend... then you pay me as your friend as well... then pooooooofed!!! so i figured, thats why friendship is free... why not, to just not pay each other... since we both will use up friendship services and exchange payments why not simply exempt the concept of payment for friendship...

i know in this world today most things are payed... from extatically expensive luxury items to basic needs like water... and trading is an important factor... i give you service you pay me... but in friendship it works differently... i show you kindness, laughter, craziness, tears, biatchiness... you pay me kindness, laughter, tears and biatchiness as well... so now i say friendship is not free and its payment is quite expensive and hard to find... but in the end its all worth it...

pokemoooooning and missing those darn cold rainy stormy days...

2007-08-21T08:21:00.001-07:00

so okay as you can see my post before this is about me getting bored... the exact status report... the weather.. the time.. and that whole zany ketchup thought bla bla bla... oh well what happened really after that post is that i just made myself busy through pokemooning... and up to now im still playing pokemon... (ohhh damn'it!!! i want a pikachu!!! pika* pika*)... so now at exactly 11:25 pm... as i was busy trying to battle some darn corny metapod... i stared at the window and realized that this whole activity was more fun to do when it was raining... more fun when the chill that the wind brings was makin me effin' freeze... heheh... oh well since im only a la-aaame human being with no super powers like the pokemons.. and since the world we live in is lame as well that we cant afford to own a pokemon.. and that all we can do is put on a jacket when its cold, and wear a uber slutty tank top when its hot... now all thats left for me to do is continue my quest to becoming the pokemon master, in my own pokemon world... augh... so kapeeessh... tudum tudum...

(at the back of my head: sana umulan!!! aaarrghhh)

just effin' lovin the rainy season dearest...

.................

2007-08-16T18:37:00.000-07:00

boredom is effin' killing me!!! damnit!!! aaaugh!!!

at exactly 9:38am... august 17 2007...

weather: rainy

situation: all alone in the house... sick...

grrrr!!!

Ketchup. Catsup. Ketchup. Catsup. I'm in over my head

Pasta Bingers!

2007-08-15T04:00:00.000-07:00

after class, on my way home i got stranded at robinsons supermarket, and while i was walking around doing nothing, i got tempted with the thought of cooking pasta, then i figured... that since i have no classes left and that i have the whole afternoon doing nothing, and that since my stomach is already complaining.. why not cook pasta... cook pasta i did... hehe... then i invited bianca to come over and share the delight that pasta brings... (-_*)... YUMMIE!!!

WELCOME!!!!

2007-08-13T20:36:00.000-07:00

lemme show you guys some photos where i spent almost half of my life a day... my room... my bummin' around area... my sleeping area... my meditation area???... my computer area... my lounging area... my studying area... my area.. my living space... the place where i go to whenever i feel sleepy, happy, lonely, bored, and simply feeling zen... pooft...

what do you do after a hard days work??

2007-08-13T07:30:00.000-07:00

boring and tiring days... what do you do?!?! eat hahaha!! mmm yum yum yum...

good ol' highschool days...

2007-08-13T06:57:00.000-07:00

here are some pictures of me and my high school friends... aaaw those were the days... the days when we were so innocent that we argue over simple things like me hating boybands and some of em' loving em', but despite our differences we still enjoy spending times laughing and being simply crazy...

mga ineng!!! hahahaha OMG!! :-O we look so young!!! ahahahahaha

Absenteism

2007-08-05T19:57:00.000-07:00

Absenteism...

this past few days i have always been absent... every morning i wake up feeling sluggish and tired... maybe i was just all stressed out with all these tension going on in my family.. quarrels between my mother, brother, and father... everytime i get to spend sometime with them all they ever talk about is how financially unreliable and emotionally distressing this family is. i know, i know that since im the only one now in this family thats studying and that doesnt earn means that they are all responsible for giving me my financial needs, and that my responsibility is to go to school, attend classes, and study well. consuelo pa nga ako kc they dont really require me to get high grades, all they ever want from me is to pass... ewan ko nga ba sakn!! why!! my life is such a mess!! d nman ako magimik na tao, unlyk other kids who party all night long, buti pa nga cla kc even tho they go out at night they still can afford to attend thier classes. is it because of the fact that my social life inside school is a crackdown thats why im always absent? or is it because my inclination just doesnt match this whole new course that im taking up which is BSIT... coz this past few semesters this thought that "i was better off a psychology student rather than a BSIT student" most of the time pops in my head. i really dont know and i really cant figure out whats goin on inside me... but as for now may i just conclude that im ill with absenteism, and searching for the cure... which may be in the form of self-discipline... which i lack... grrrrrr.... but okay since life is all about learning lessons.. and i know that im soo down with this sickness... i must wake up... and start anew... grrrrr..

picture escapade (ahahaha) (9:20, 8-3-07)

2007-08-03T06:23:00.000-07:00

just got home... had this uber nice talk with karen over dinner... hehehe... I ate those yummie figer lickin buffalo wings for dinner... oooh yum yum yum... oohh well not that much in the mood for story telling and writing, and boggling my thoughts coz' damn my stomach is so full!!!... but since im really really in the mood for posting... ima just gonna share mio photos..

current obsession

2007-08-02T21:06:00.000-07:00

...photoshopping... and by that i meant making my uber whacked out photos more balooney! liquifying my cheeks, burning my hair, makin myself a simpson character.. oohh me likey!!

...limewiring... music overdownload!! from the spice girls - the powerpuff girls - movie soundtracks - maskoman soundtrack (tagapagtanggol ng mga naapi!! yeah yeah yeah!! laser squadron!!) - sanasasasas...

...Asian Flicks... Movies... Series... Hana Kimi (Jdorama and TW)... Coffee Prince... Initial D... the king and clown... http://www.veoh.com/... http://www.cruchyroll.com/... http://www.youtube.com/... my sources... if you know any pls feel free to share... hehehehe

...different forms of SPICY CHICKEN... from KFC's extreme hotshots - Buffalo Wings - Proven sa kanto na idadawdaw sa suka na maanghang - isaw ng manok na again idadawdaw sa sukang maanghang!!! woooh yummie yummie yummie!!!

...Racing Movies... Gone in 60 secs... Fast and the Furious 123... cars!!! (oooh i just love those cartoonie car stuff hehehe, tow mater ahaha!!!)... herbie fully loaded... transporter???... initial D... talladega nights...

...Dresses... whooo dresses are way more comftable to wear as compared to those darn jeans!!! theyre darn baaaaah makes my feet sweat to the bones ahahaha!!

good morning =D

2007-08-02T17:58:00.000-07:00

NO CLASSES!! yeyeyeyeyeyeye!!... but hafta run... check yah later... im late for a meeting as always... just waiting for this one last song to upload... woosh...

feelings nothing more than feelings (2:39, thursday, 08-2-07)

2007-08-01T23:29:00.000-07:00

thats me... the animated ella... as for now i dont really know if ill be able to maintain this blogging thingy... coz im a really really lazy person, this is like my 100th attempt of creating a blog... ive tried xanga, multiply, blogger, and all of those accounts as of now is a mess, but im thinking maybe this time i would be able to make this account work because now i have my own computer. finally, a computer with an internet connection!!

sooo hmm.. lets start... my thoughts this afternoon at exactly 2:39, wedensday... all my friends (or should i say the TTH club :D )(my friends go here at my house to spare time during theyre ooo soo long vacant sshedule, since my house is just near the campus they prefer bumming around here)(hehehe)(at kung mbasa nyo to mga ijo ija, specifcally bianca, karen, kat at kung cno cno pa.. mga loko kayo! ahahaha JK) are downstairs watching poseidon, and me here upstairs just got shot by the boredom bug... ewan ko ba, this morning i woke up feeling soo slouchy, grumpy, somewhat depressed and bummed, hopefully tonight i would feel more lively, take note HOPEFULLY!, heheh, so now what? hmm

thats my feeling for now......

hopefully i will be all smiles this afternoon